Vulnerably speaking, I was monitoring my own selfish quotient this week. I say I was 'monitoring' it in that I noticed it boldly and frequently on display in just a few hours period.Shameful.
Frankly, it shocked even me.
Now, I know ME - that I can be selfish (of course, we all can - and I had to include you just then in order for me to feel better about me), but I was self-surprised that I was so brazen with my self-centeredness in my every day walk. Don't make me give you the accounts blow-by-blow. That would be too much.
Embarrassingly so.
'I know that I can be selfish.'
Now that I have shared it with YOU, you are free to tell me how wrong I am about myself --- that I am a paragon and pure testimony of humility and servanthood. But stop. Please resist that urge. I am what I am. But I sure don't want to stay what I am, especially what I showed I was deep down this week.
What is the core Scripture that makes all the other ones work?
It's: 'God loved the world so much that He gave His one and only Son ... '
Where's the selfish part in there? It's missing. Noticeably, brazenly, scandalously absent is any trace of selfishness in that.
How I want more of that in my own life.
God . . .
And be blessed.
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Oh boy, PK. Yes, we can all be selfish sometimes in our own ways. But let just let me speak for myself. I can be selfish in wanting more time and attention than someone can give. There are times when I just don't realize the demands they have on their time. Then, other times I just want what I want regardless. :/
I think I can be selfish with my family sometimes. I take them for granted. As if they will always be there no matter what. That is changing now. Slowly, but surely, they are turning their backs on me. I don't exactly blame them, though.
I am the most selfish with God. I take Him completely for granted and I am selfish with the time I give to Him. Like you said in a previous post, He is looking for people who pay attention to the things that are important to Him, not to me. It's amazing He still loves me. But He does.
I think I am more interested in my own concerns and desires. I'm not proud of it, but since you brought it up, I am guilty, right along with you.
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